Saturday, March 07, 2009

The Saturday Night Downer

It has been a busy week. My client has me working with a small team in France which means I try to be at work for 7:30 am. Then at night, I was cramming for the tech talk on Thursday. Then, one of my beloved Java conferences this weekend. I have been in a conference centre for most of Friday and Saturday.

Today, I was really into the conference and received some kind comments on the tech talk. Some key people have vouched for me as being worthy of speaking at the conference, which has been a goal, of sorts.

I saw great presentations, laughed, made people laugh, dined with geeks, and took sticker photos. Everything was good. I quite liked my place in St Louis.

But here on Saturday night at 10 pm, I'm wondering where the heck I am and what I'm doing. This is not uncommon for Saturday nights. If one were to graph any loneliness during my tenure in the US (or even away from PEI), I'm sure Saturday night would be the most frequent.

Wow. I just wrote for 20 minutes but it became quite introspective and alarmingly "diary"-like. I'm glad I wrote it and it helped me think, but I don't think the world needs to see it.

I'll be fine tomorrow morning, and that's a problem: I'm always fine Sunday morning, because there is a new day to keep me distracted from dealing with the important things in life.

5 comments:

Princezz O'Phun said...

*sigh*... I just had one of those Saturday nights, too. May blog about it, maybe.

But maybe this sense of loneliness and confusion is good. As one of my favorite quotes says, "if you don't get lost, there's a chance you may never get found."

Chin up. Everything will be ok. :)

CaptainCanuck said...

Good to hear from you, Princezz! Thanks for the quote and the empathy... I'll watch for your blog (and think of a reciprocal quote)

Chin up, as well ;-)

ncsmn said...

I think loneliness and confusion are the natural state of any self reflective sentient being. my only advice would be balance your introspection between positive and negatives very few things are as one sided as they seem. just my two cents. Music is always a great mood opener too. I'd say Glenn Gould would be a nice Sunday choice.

K. said...

Just remember that you have people thinking about (and caring about) you all over the US and Canada.

Seattle is always open to you...

CaptainCanuck said...

thanks ncsmn and K! Wisdom that means a lot....