I have this internal threshold when it comes to public speaking and presentations: if it was "very good" (or better) then I experience a euphoria that is unbelievable. If it is anything less, I brood for days if not weeks. I wonder if I'm manic-depressive in that regard?
Tonight, we took one on the chin.
The crowd was super friendly and the style stuff went pretty well. My joke slides worked. But I lost them in example #2 and got rattled in my own head. It wasn't "very good". It wasn't "wretched" either but it doesn't matter.
It wasn't "very good".
I'll spare you the profanity and general piss and vinegar. Schisse. Weeks of study for this one. At least I learned a lot.
ps. For those who have seen my endless prepartion for this, here is a photo of the audience. I didn't take it but was standing near the guy who did.
pps. I used some real-life props which went over well. Apparently this was a creative idea but for some reason that comes natural to my family.
ppps. I've since realized that I left my power supply for my new laptop at the venue, or that it was stolen. Perfect. Perfect.