Off the Grid

Much like a year ago, I'm at the apartment clubhouse, hammering out a blog post with no Internet access at home.

And yet things are quite different.

The movers come on Wednesday. Things are not quite ready but very close.

I have really felt the love from all corners in the last 2 weeks. I've had dinners, lunches, parties, etc. It has been a terrific send-off; far more than I ever imagined.

The people here in St Louis are really wonderful. I think I knew that beforehand, but the outpouring lately has been profound.

I was happy to see the core Dinner Club gang at a recent party. That was fun, and the ending was surprisingly overwhelming. It was the inevitable Big Moment where I realized this was all really, truly happening, and combined with moving vagueness and stress, it was intense. I could write 5 different blog posts about that evening and the people there.

Today was better. I had a final lunch with the nefarious Jim G today. Saying goodbye, the grizzled ex-Navy man was pretty choked-up until we joked that we'll race a 1/2 marathon together at a vacation event, which naturally led to me saying that "I'll be fit again by then, and you'll still be eating Moonpies and Twinkies".

It is to laugh (lest we cry).

CC

More Factoids

Here are some more musings....

My StL employer asked me to go onto Facebook to help our presence on social media. It was through Facebook that I noticed the job fair on PEI. I would never have seen it otherwise. (FB is much maligned in the media, and by most people, but it really does have some benefits).

My move will be a bit easier because (a) I moved last year from my apartment and (b) we moved buildings last year. So I don't have a great attachment to the buildings. Naturally, people matter far more and it isn't easy to leave them. But I hope to be back soon, maybe even this year.

The timing is pretty good. It is a good time to leave my client and June is both a decent month in St Louis (a bit warm and thunderstorm-y) and a great month on PEI. I'll be back at the height of the tourist season!

CC

Last Day

Today was my last day at the client site. It was terrific.

In the morning, people brought in tons of food. Stuff from a French bakery, donuts, and more. Our war room was party central. There were many goodbyes. I had written out some notes the night before (for a select few people), and distributed the cards during the day.

One of my favourites, the famous Berlin, read her card, and then asked me, tentatively: "is a hug OK?". I laughed out loud, and very nearly shed a tear. Of course it was OK.

For lunch, they took me out to a favourite Indian cuisine restaurant. About 20 people went out, which was quite a testament to my departure (or their love of Indian food).

Finally, at the end of the day, about 18 people surprised me by singing 'O Canada'. They printed the sheet music at a Canadian gov't website, no less! It was surreal, weird, and really funny.

What a great spot. I loved that gig. It was the best place I've ever worked.

CC

Fun Facts

Here are some facts that have popped into my head on the move:

I came to the US based on a job fair that I attended (and took substantial effort and time off work) in Ottawa.

I am leaving the US based on a job fair that I attended (and took substantial effort and time off work) on PEI.

I believe the 2 oldest things that I own are a Good News Bible (received in 1983, as part of confirmation into the United Church) and a chess set that I received for Christmas when I was about 12.

My work visa expires in September, but I will not have to renew it (for the first time in years).

People ask me if PEI has various stores (e.g. Trader Joe's). I have no idea. I haven't lived there in a long time. Ditto for social services.

I find myself thinking about PEI in the era when I left. I wonder what it will be like, as though it is 1991, forgetting that I have been there 5 times in the last 2.5 years. I was just home in March!

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Quote

I made my announcement over on the tech blog. I quoted a poem by Frank Ledwell (the late, famed Island writer and poet). Readers may want to check it out (click here).

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Weekend Celebrations

On Friday night, some friends got together for a bash to celebrate my departure. I could write a 10-page essay on the evening. It was just great. There were about 3 core groups (the Dinner Club gang, work people, poker friends) and others who defy categorization -- all them special and dear to me. Some extremely key people (including my best man Bryan) printed out many photos of escapades over the years.

There were pics of costumes (pirates, horse jockeys), trips (Hawaii, Paris, Amsterdam), and every hair style imaginable. I have them now with me in my apartment.

It was really touching, and of course seeing the people was even better. Everyone was very kind and wished me a warm farewell. There really aren't enough words to describe the emotions, and the bittersweet sense of finally going home and yet leaving St Louis and my friends.

I may have denied roots and commitment at every opportunity, but I absolutely do have roots here. There is no denying it.

As I've learned from Traci, I'll be back to visit. I may even book a trip this summer, just to have something ahead on the calendar. Plus, many people suggested coming to PEI. That would be fantastic!

On Saturday, I attended Jess' wedding (JLC is a dear, long-time friend and occasional commenter on this blog). It was really splendid. I loved that it fused a variety of traditions with wonderful choices from pop music (e.g. John Lennon, The Beatles, Stevie Wonder), all tastefully rendered on piano.

There were so many nice touches, but one that stood out for me was an Irish prayer (if I recall correctly). I can't find it online, but it wished the groom and bride many blessings (e.g. shelter from the rain and cold, prospersity, etc). One of them hit me pretty hard, personally: being near to loved ones. Proximity as a blessing. Amen to that. Congrats, Jess! What a lovely ceremony....

CC

Update

Things are extremely busy but plans are falling into place, slow but steady.

The new motto is: just get through June. I think most of my triathlon training was intended for this month in terms of maintaining reasonable blood pressure.

A fun fact: I will start a new blog when I get to PEI. I don't know the name yet. I've always hated the URL for this one, and as my bro-in-law says "there are too many C's". It will be under this Blogger account so it won't be hard to find.

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News

Birds in winter have their fling,
But always make it home by spring.
It's just another ordinary miracle today.
-- Sarah McLachlan

I heard Sarah McLachlan sing Ordinary Miracle at the opening of the Vancouver Olympics, and I knew then that my trip home this spring / summer would be a bit different:

I'm bringing all my stuff with me.

This is it. I've accepted a job back on Prince Edward Island, and am moving back! I start in mid June...

I will write more about how I found the courage to (finally) overcome my inertia, how much I'll miss my friends in St Louis, and so on, but for now I want to get out the news. I'm very excited!

CC

ps. I will post on my other blog but not just yet.

pps. Almost everyone in St Louis has said "you've been talking about this since I've known you". True, true. I did just live year-to-year, and though my 'St Louis Experiment' was really wonderful, that is a hard way to live. The 'PEI Experiment' is the next chapter.

Jim G Returns

Jim G and I raced a 3k tonight, on the same Clayton High School track that saw some of our greatest, fastest battles back in 2003-2005.

This was his first real event since the serious motorbike wreck in November 2008. He won, though we were both at a glacial pace. I hate losing but I was happy for Jim. It was good to see him back.

However, the evidence is in: I've really slacked off at the gym, and it has taken a toll. Hopefully, I can get back on track now that the damn talk is over. Alas, there are other balls in the air that may have a far greater impact.

I'm stunned at how fit I was in the past. Both in terms of body image and just sheer metrics. I barely ran this race in 16 minutes. I'm sure that I have broken 13 min in the past. That may not sound like much, but remember that running times are exponential.

CC

ps. It was probably 80+ F when we raced at 7 pm. It was crazy.

Talk

Sometime in early December, I wrote an abstract for a talk on a topic that I barely understood.

As long-time readers know, I have been cramming for it over the last couple of months. It was today, and went pretty well. Though in a small room, the place was packed, and of the group that submitted evaluations, most were impressed.

Going in, I wanted a mark of 80% from 80% of the crowd. Though there are no "marks" like that, I think I met that goal.

It has been a long, stressful spring, but this milestone is a major relief and a nice bullet item in the resume. Moreover, having attended these conferences annually since 2001, it was just time to get up there. Despite my moaning, I am a decent public speaker.

CC

Google Logo

This is a time-sensitive post but today's Google logo is a working Pacman game. If you click on the logo and let the game start, then you can use the arrow keys to play the game.

Very cool... more on Google's Doodles here

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Update

Some people know that I am anticipating some news to post on this blog. Alas, as yet, there is no news. This is a bit surprising but there we have it. I don't know how the gears of destiny really work.

Some other, real news: my tech talk is this Sunday! As things draw closer, I'm getting excited. The long hours of preparation will (hopefully) pay off, and I'm quite distracted with other stuff to be too worried.

In the phrase of the last 2-3 years, "it is what it is". i.e. The first rule of Tautology Club is the first rule of Tautology Club.

CC

Cross Canada 2010

Pedaling PEI told me about this neat blog (click here)... 2 Islanders are biking across Canada, and blogging their adventures. Check it out...

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Cinco de Mayo

It is a time of celebration in St Louis: Cinco de Mayo, a crossover pseudo-cultural recognition of a Mexican victory in 1862.

This particular one is gorgeous: 80 F and sunny, even at 7 pm.

You might ask if I am celebrating. Dinner? Drinks? Perhaps a long run?

Negative.

I am consumed by The Talk and The (career) Exploration. I have been to Kinko's for 4 straight nights to photocopy documents and/or proofread presentation slides. I haven't been to the gym in about 3 weeks. Soon, I will return to work to make up time this evening. I am constantly on the phone at lunch, and tomorrow AM, I am taking the morning off to consult with cross-border accountants.

It is pretty busy. I have virtually withdrawn from social circles in St Louis (sorry about that). I am usually sleeping well and not really keyed up, but things are intense, and I haven't even made any decisions on The Exploration.

My main solace are some guilty-pleasure TV and, wonderfully, a strong routine on the piano.

I hope all is well you, dear readers. Have a margarita for me!

CC

Perspective

A lot going on at CC HQ, but no updates...

Instead, just read this (click here). It is worth it. Quoteth:

Erik, who is living with liver cancer, has always wanted to be a superhero. On Thursday, the regional chapter of the Make-A-Wish Foundation granted him that wish with an elaborate event that involved hundreds of volunteers in Bellevue and Seattle.

Vancouver trip

Long-time readers will know that we recommend Pedaling PEI on a variety of levels.

Be sure to check out recent photos from a trip to Vancouver. I happen to know the author cycled about 200 km in a week trip there.

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Interesting Link

Some techie wrote a comment called "Dear Canada, I miss you" and people are responding. My guess is that many are ex-pats who are working in science and technology.

You can't make this stuff up!

CC

Sweet Music

I don't like it when people stay on the same theme in social media. Their voice becomes noise, and the message is lost. I follow one person on Facebook (not a reader of this blog, and a former instructor) who has a single social issue and that's it. It gets old.

In a similar vein, my bemoanings are probably getting old on here.

So here is some music! This is the angelic Eric Johnson, and one of my favourite songs of all time. There is a long intro but just let it go.... or skip to about 5:20

This song came from God, seriously.

The Inner Circle

This is not news, but I have great friends both in the US and Canada. Several people have contacted me in the last couple of days to understand the back story behind recent themes on this blog.

A special shout-out to my sister who really brought the goods in a recent conversation. (People ask if I am "close to my sister" and I say yes, but we don't talk often on the phone. Generally Islanders are not phone people, due to insane long distance rates back in the day.)

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Big Questions

There are many big questions, and most show the following question to be rather trite and greedy. Yet, one has to be careful.

This is rhetorical but the question is if there is ever "the right time" to cash out of investments. Normally, one should never do this, especially if there are penalties involved, but what if it is for a life-changing event?

If one stays in the market until it gets better, this is effectively "timing the market" which is notoriously error-prone.

On the other hand, if one waits for too long, one never makes a decision.

This is tricky stuff.

Without throwing rocks at either side, all I can say is that cross-border living is rough, man.